Booked stryde femurs next month. Cant sleep properly at night, getting bad lucid dreams, waking up sweaty and chilly in the morning. Almost wrote a draft email asking my surgeon to cancel my surgery booking. God this is going to be difficult. Just want the month to pass. I wish I didnt have to wait one month for this surgery.
thanks guys for the support. I keep changing from excitement to horrifying fear. today I wore flip flops and went out and it made me feel very good about my decision to get this surgery. i visited to one of the universities near me and seeing young kids much taller than me made me realise why i am doing this.
thanks movie, waiting 2 months must have been hell man.
this thing is scaring me so much that sometimes I start feeling i am not really short lol. i noticed someone shorter than me and thought "oh that guy seems happy. he is not doing LL. do I really need it?" I saw someone on a wheelchair in the flight the other day and thought "oh there are people who would kill just to be healthy and walk around and here I am doing this". then I saw this short dude with a really attractive wife and I thought "oh man i should have just committed to a relationship and not pursued this surgery".
what happens next is a mystery lol. I'd rather not mention my doctor until i go through with this. i might feel quite embarassed of myself if this becomes a flopshow 
Quote from: Medium Drink Of Water on November 12, 2019, 03:23:01 PMYour nervousness might go away with a little reverse psychology. Imagine someone else told you that you weren't allowed to get the surgery. 
Happened to me and I was eager as could be to get into that operating room.
who told you you weren't allowed for surgery? it cant be someone who simply gives an opinion but should be someone who actually stops you if you want reverse psychology to work.
actually I remember around 6 months ago I didnt have enough money and due to some family issues i couldn't get LL and I was super angry back then and thought "I will do it asap". but now the stage is set and I am all shaky
TallerVL, IwannaBeTaller,
I dont think LL has made be humble. i think its survival tendencies making me find reasons to not do it. making contact with my surgeon and committing surgery was also super hard. paying surgery deposit was also super hard. i opened my bank login and closed it and did this several times before sending it.
i am around 5'5 so yes i am objectively short. I have thought about LL for extremely long. thinking more is pointless. i have to do it or not do it now.
thanks for the advice and perspective Movie, TheAlchemist, azman, Antoine187, LLPrime2
I went through some old diaries and many of them express severe anxiety before surgery.
i tried watching movies and shows of "tough people" who go through difficulty (like rambo) in order to feel inspired but surprisingly it makes me feel more anxious. but watching more chilled out "good times" movies of people having fun, comedy films make me feel better about my decision lol
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