Quote from: Lalbadshah on August 19, 2019, 11:57:35 AMLL is very tough on your body, soul, mind and it is so tough that being able ti be productive at work is IMPOSSIBLE, trust me, it is IMPOSSIBLE. you can work but your hours will be so irregular, your output so low, your behavior so unpredictable that your career may end at that job (worst case, fired) or at best case you will be a marked low performer who will be the fall guy in next layoff or promotion cycle. Being fired is most likely.
Hey man,
I just wanna add up that not everyone has a high-performance, high-pressure silicon valley job. I totally get your performance suffers as you've described, but so does the performance of employees who got into accidents, have lived throught traumas or lost close relatives or loved ones. Obviously that's different than volunteering to choose LL, but if you can successfully make people believe it was a necessary bone surgery, it might be different. You're in the US, where there's a "hire and fire" policy and employees can be fired for no reason whatsoever. Other countries have stronger worker's protection laws and an employer actually needs a justified reason to let someone go.
It depends on the professional climate one works in and the country one lives in, but there's also companies who value an employee for their work and loyalty and will not fire him if he just had surgery or got sick. Just wanted to chime in on that.
My Femur Stryde LL (with Dr. Debiparshad) diary
you are right wannabetaller, my perspective is correct fro my stand point and yours is also right from your point.
Update for all - I had left my job (due to various reasons, not performance related in fact they gave me 200% bonus to keep me 
and joined a 1 yr masters program in data science in a top school, so that I can - i) shift to data science ii) focus more on PT and have been VERY busy.
current situation - doing fine, walk withiout walker normally, walk up doen stairs normally, but have mild pain (rang g from .5 to 2) 80% of time in specific areas of both legs which I think will go away with time (I am only like 100 days post surgery), today something bad happened - I tripped on a pair of hard shoes and fell down on floor. Was able to get up fine and had a PT appointment in 15 minutes (after the fall) and went (walked it is .4 miles from me) there and told them what happened , also texted Ronny asking if I should do X-ray. the PT people gave me lots of tough exercises and did lots of physical tests (example - a strong guy asked me to resist while he tried with full force to bed my knees but could not, and similar tests), I was able to resists all forces without any pain on one leg and with .5 pain on other, based on this they said you are more than fine don't worry - if something would have happened due to fall you would not be able to walk to the clinic likenormal and resist the bending (that the guy was trying to do) without a lot pf pain. They gave me lots of many exercises and I passed like 90% with flying colors, struggled in some (because of course I am not 100% back to normal, it is impossible in 3 months), one more thing I can sit on floor with folded legs fine without any issue. Ronny and I agreed that I will see 1-2 days and if I feel anything odd/bad then I will get an X-ray done. My only challenge now is to ditch oxycodon, which I still need (though I have reduced to 2-3 a day) because of pain, I am trying to replace Oxycodon with Tylenol, I hope I succeed, because I still feel some dependency and uneasiness and increased pain at times (though not unbearable, more like 3 max) if I dont take Odycodon for very long hours. Next update after 3 weeks , have 2 amazon interviews for Senior Manager roles. bye till then, wish me luck.
You have been taking more than 2-3 oxy every day since the day of surgery till now (100 days)?
And what was that other crazy pain you were describing earlier?
Quotenow suddenly the day I came back from visit with Dr. D 2 days back, next morning I woke up with unbearable (9/10) pain on joint of right side hip, as the day went by and with pain medicine it was gone and I was walking etc fine but again at night unbearable pain and now I am on bed with high pain.
Quote from: cena on November 01, 2019, 08:16:20 PMYou have been taking more than 2-3 oxy every day since the day of surgery till now (100 days)?
And what was that other crazy pain you were describing earlier?
dude, in your PMs and your questions you try to make things sound dramatic and the way you ask questions is offending I have not told you till now because I knew it will make you feel bad or you may become defensive or offensive and I have no time to waste arguing with people (once wanted to tell you in PM but then had let it go, but am telling you today), maybe because it is your lack of research, being immature or lack of understanding american way of giving respect/being polite anyway - one advice if you want help/advice from people ask politely and be nice to them don't try to grill them and disrespect - they don't owe you anything if you ask questions in such a way in future i will not respond. FYI - the frequency (and even medicines) vary for patients , for exmaple some take morphin, some morphin plus Oxycodon , some Oxycodon only, and the frequency also varies as per the doctor;s undertsanding or your pain bearing capability, some people are prescribed every 4 hours, some very 5 and so on. I was taking every 5 hours for soem time, then I changed to every 6 and now 2-3 a day , this varies on individual circumstances, just like recovery varies for exmple - I know some people who could not get out for of bed for 7 days after surgery and I was walkign with walker next day, I could move my legs a lot in 24 hours which I was told by Ronney he has not seen anybody being able to do, even in this forum you will see from diaries diffrent people at different level of recovery stage in same time frame, so everything - including your medicine, your pain level, your recovery, union (e.g. some have non union, and some liek me have relatively fast union), your flexibility, your weight bearign ability, your stamina (how long, with how much inclination can you walk) varies and are not like a predefined and fixed math formula. Also, fyi - the thing with opioids (that is why those are controlled substances) is that they have a hooking effect on your brain, so even if you have mild pain the brain at times tries to amplifyy it to try to force you to take it (think cigerettes, alcohol) and anyboduy who has ever taken opioids for long term has the challange to get off those, and how people deal with the challange and how quickly is also subjective (just like all the other things like recovery, pain, flexibility , stmian etc.), if someoen takes more time it does not make them junkie, just like if somebody takes 7 days to walk it does not make him/her a sissie, if sombody has fast union does not make them wolverrine or super human, humans are different adn their minds and bodies are different. Regarding the unbearable pain - it was gone after 3-4 days, I never understood why it came and why it went (though I have some therories in my mind - like maybe there was some blood clot because on that particular day I did not walk, I was sitting in plane for 10-12 hours and then sitting or lying for rest of the time, which was different then my normal routine where I walk decent amount. But that is just a theory, I will never know) but since it has been many weeks and I am doing fine I don't think about that any more and anyway in LL there will be things that will remain unexplained (as you will see of you read all diaries) because LL and its outcome and recovery phases are not a fully predictable. Please do more research, research is your best friend if you wanna do LL. And DO NOT disrespect LLers, each may have their difficulty and positive points durign the journey but each of them at least had the guts to go through the journey and deal with the challanges, rather than being a keyboard warrior spitting out offending/juding comments. And again - I will prefer/request you get off my diary and do not PM or me or write in my diary any more, I don't like non-polite judgemental people, thank you in advance for respecting my request/preference.
Sorry dude didn't mean to sound rude or anything. It is sometmes hard to get across the verbal tone correctly through messages on the internet which may come off as rude. anyway it is my mistake I should have been more careful in how I typed. I take this feedback well.
I was honestly a bit surprised about the oxy because as you explained I also had the same idea about it (addicting and can cause dependence). As you say I keep finding out new perspectives of LL as I read more. Now that I think about it, I might have startled a couple of other LLers (tiggy for ex) also by sounding dramatic.
QuoteAnd again - I will prefer/request you get off my diary and do not PM or me or write in my diary any more, I don't like non-polite judgemental people, thank you in advance for respecting my request/preference.
sorry I read this edit after I wrote my comment. Ok I wlll not post on your diary hence forth. Best of luck with your journey!
update:
the good: I have been able to get over my dependence on Oxycodon and replace it with tylenol as the pain killer but still taking both so as to avoid getting hooked to any one.
the bad and ugly: i was doing awesome and felt like 90% back to normal one week back when suddenly something happened, at PT they gave me too many exercises , like TOOOOOO MAAAANNNYY and too tough, and I was like huffing puffing at the end, anyway Tuesday morning i go to college and by evening when i come back I started getting pain (4 level) on left femur muscles and at late night it goes upto 7 forcing me to take another painkiller (before that i was taking only 2 painkillers a day) next morning (wednesday) I wake up with 6-7 pain and take pain killer and shower and take rest which brings down pain to 3, remain on bed tilll 1 PM, then I walk to PT and tell her what happeneded, she does investigation and concludes that the too much exercise on monday had made my IT band MAD and that is what is causing the pain, she gives me massage which brings down pain to 1.5 but then she gives me exercises which bring up pain to 3 again. and at night it goes up to 6, but with painkiller and hot shower i bring it down to 2-3 and go to college but by end of the day even aftter painkillers, the pain reaches 8 and I drag myself back to my house and with rest, after 24 hrs now the pain is 2.5-3. lets see if it goes away in 1-2 days.
Hey lalbadshah! How are things going? Hope the pain subsided!
hi, yes, just when you sent the message - the same day (11/21 mornng) i woke up with zero pain and it has been so from last 48 hours, even though I am taking caution and not walking too much or not taking too many stairs or not doing muuch physical PT only like .7 miles walk a day, 20 stairs up down and quad and hamstring stretch, that's it.
Great to hear the pain is finally gone! Must be a hell of a relief!
I think it's wise to ease up on the PT and heavy walking for a few more days - good call
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